….. I talked to the friend today! I was so happy that I did. You dont know how much better I feel. I think as I mentioned my biggest fear was loosing him moreso then the one I like. I just love this friend with everything and I told him that. I asked him if he got my message, he said no. I dont know if he’s lying or not but nonetheless I told him what I said. I miss you. He said they felt the same. I feel tons better, not complete, but better. I feel like a weight has been lifted off me.

I feel ok.

Finally.

A friend gave me flowers today. Ive never really got any in my life. Once or twice I have but only from family. It was nice, a very sweet gesture. I feel special. Aww. I guess kindness does pay off. Ive just been there for this person lately and they are returning the favour now that I am going through crap. I love my friend, she rocks. Anyhoo, They are beautiful I have to get a picture.

I also got a new outfit for this weekend. Im excited. Ill get a photo of that too.. if I remember. Its a dress with yellow flowers, it’s pretty! lol I spent most of the afternoon looking for something to wear, I was so happy when I found that. Oooh also I found some awesome shoes too. I cant wait to get them tomorrow. Im so excited LOL! shoes rock. I wanna do something with my hair too. I think hilights. Not sure if to go with brown or red.. any suggestions? My hair is pretty dark, black to most people so any help… I’d appreciate.