IT’S REALLY ALL SO SAD… PT2
OK so I’m having major issues. I can’t seem to sleep and I’m on total edge. I’m actually shaky. I mean I haven’t been feeling 100% lately and I’ve felt on edge the last few days but today is something else. I don’t know if it’s lack of sleep or what. I just find myself really on edge. I’m not sure if to sleep or cry. I’m not going to work, I feel like if I do I’ll just crack. Heck, I wish I could quit. I feel like my problems and my lack of anything began with this job. I cant rest my mind, it’s just going and going and going and going. I don’t know what to do. I keep feeling like something bad is gonna happen. I just do. I feel like it will. I KNOW it. I just have this constant edgy feeling. I keep thinking things aren’t right. They aren’t. I have this overwhelming fear of being alone right now. I just wish someone would be here. I just need noise. I need sound. I need someone. I need something. I turn on the TV, but it wont let me sleep, but I need the noise. I’m happy it’s actually light outside now, I didn’t like being in the dark today. I dunno what’s wrong with me. I feel like I’m going to have a panic attack or have a major meltdown. I kinda wish I would, maybe it would alleviate my pressure. Just release it. I’ve been hyperventilating off and on for the last 2 days but I figured it’d go away, it has before, but not today. I’m shaky. I figured yesterday maybe I had low sugar, then I thought maybe it’s high sugar but no I’m still on edge today. Maybe even worse. I don’t know whats wrong. I just can’t sleep. Cannot sleep. Boo. I don’t know what to do with myself. I don’t have anymore sleeping pills so I cant like force myself to sleep. I’m so tense and tight, every move I make it; it hurts. I hate this. I can’t hang with this feeling, these emotions. I can’t take it. I dunno what’s wrong.
I need relief, I need it!!
Children are at full pelt now so I have no time to read this. But as soon as they are in bed I will do so and I will email you.
x
Awww honey. Im so sorry. You said you ran out of sleeping pills.. if you can use generic ones, walmart has generic sleep aid for like 1.44 and thats what I use when I cant sleep.
As far as everything else goes, Ive been through it and ultimately was put on anxiety medication. I took it fora few years and then eased myself off of it. Maybe you should just talk to a doctor because you shouldnt have to live so stressed out. *hug*
oh..about the shirt i got with the belt.. I guess theyre really popular -_- my gm was with me and insisted I get it lol Im not crazy about the belt part but youre right, its popular..meh. Hang in there and goodluck with everything okay?
Oh Izzy. This does sound very scary. I do wonder if there could be something physical going on? Will you go and see the doc? Please. If only to discount physical things.
Will email now.
Wow, I’m sorry to hear that. =( I haven’t been sleeping well for the past 2 weeks either… =/
I think that it’s the lack of sleep that’s making you feel off and all that…
*hugs* Well, I don’t know what else to tell you… Good luck… I know the feeling of wanting to sleep, but you can’t… =/
Oh, and maybe you should see a doctor if it continues? Good luck!