HOPE
“I had hope, I believed, but I’m beginning to think that I’ve been deceived”
No More Sorrow - Linkin Park
Apt words indeed! See, I’ve come to understand a few things about hope. First, I must say it is, to me, an admirable quality. Looking for, or at the least trying to see life and the things in it, in a positive way is something I can really appreciate. Yet, I can’t help but think that hope eventually does nothing but set you up for further failure coupled with disappointment; or so it seems anyway…
When in a negative mind frame, I tend to see things in said ways, but I always try to, at the least, convince myself to see it all in a positive manner. I guess ones attitude really does slant the idea of “hope” in one way or another. I mean, truthfully, hope isn’t so bad. It’s a means to dream, to desire. One can say it helps to build trust, it’s apart of relationships and is a comforting friend in the midst of sorrow. But am I wrong in thinking that hope means accepting a certain level of risk; of potential heartbreak?
I guess as with anything, it’s give and take but is it really worth it? Is the investment of so much emotion into another emotion or idea (or however you chose to define HOPE) really a wise thing to do? Is hope simply based on a human desire to find something joyful in an oft-times difficult world? I know these are all open ended questions, left for ones own interpretation. I just know that although I have hope for many things, I’ve also come to be quite close friends with the build up and let down side of it all.
I hate to be cold to emotion. My lifestyle, and the way I chose to do things, demands that I be sympathetic. Yet, I always somehow question certain aspects of feeling. I think it’s largely due to my emotions in the moment. I present myself to be logical, a thinker so to speak. I’m always very much emotionless in that I tend to keep it under wraps pretty well. (Unless, I’m angry which then means the whole world WILL know it, but that’s another issue lol.) Yet, I’m also very much a moody and emotional person within myself, when I have ample personal thinking time is when I venture off into the world of WHY’s and WHAT’s, HOW’S and WHO’s of it all! Which ends up with a blog post, lol as I’m currently doing. I mean, really, it probably isn’t as difficult, let alone as “philosophical”, as I might make out to be; (I’m very much into the world is black and white, it’s either yes or no, until the subject comes to me then I become the most indecisive person on the planet) I don’t know. It’s just a random idea floating around the sphere (or peanut lol) known as my brain.
Having put so much of my emotions into being hopeful at times has lead to me being hopeless and I guess, in the end, that’s pretty sad to me. There is something whimsical or just pure about having hope. It’s like the eyes of a child when they believe in something. I guess for me, to think I can, or have at times, lost that bit of spark is scary. I just can’t help but wonder, have I been deceived?
I rely a lot on hope. Especially when it comes to relationships lol. It is one thing to have trust in another but hope is something entirely different.
And I like that song by Linkin Park. Actually one of my favourite songs by them is this really slow song called My December. I love that song xD
izzy! it’s been forever! thought you were gone for good! what happend to you?
anyways, i like this post. i am to a pretty hopeful person but having my hopes up sometimes makes me a negative person. i get all hopeful and stuff but then nothing really happens. and i ask myself if it’s worth it or would it be better if i just give up and not try it again. but fortunately, i always go on the positive way.
i am afraid though that time will come and i’ll just give up cuz im tired of having my hopes up. =(
Yeah, I know what you mean about hopes, and I have gotten my heart broken waaaaay too many times when my hopes are high, but… I guess hope’s something that keeps you going. It keeps you going for a goal, even though that goal may not be achieved in the end. So yeah, hoping isn’t bad, but I know that I shouldn’t put my hopes up tooo high on certain things or I’d end up feeling REALLY depressed once it doesn’t end up the way I want/hope it to.
Hope. Always a good thing. If no one had hope, things would be horrible. No one would fight for what they believe in, people would commit suicide because they wouldn’t have any reason to keep on living, children would have to watch their parents drink and smoke and the other things they shouldn’t grow up seeing. Just too much to think about. And I agree with you, we have no idea how people get through it all (going back to the cyclone). One of those things that you need to see to believe.
Heh. Sorry about the dramatics.
I would have thought that most people survive on hope. I do not really see how we can be deceived in it, since it something from within. Hope goes on in the face of the most impossible situations. It is one of the strongest forces we have.
Just let hope be, Izzy, don’t question it to much.