I’m feeling really random today, not to mention I’m pretty tired right now so things I say and mention will probably reveal that teeny issue. When I’m tired I tend to ramble and or be really off in my comments, so don’t mind me.

Anyway, I’m always one who tries to know what people think of me. Its a really bad trait to have but sometimes I’m really vain or whatever you wanna call it and I just have this need to know how they see me. It was funny because with a certain person Ive known for a while now I never really cared but today I found out this person liked me. Now, I never saw this person in that way so I never gave it a second thought (though everyone kept telling me but I never believed it) as I mentioned. It was weird finding that out. We’re both in way different places in life but we’re still “close” to a certain extent. I really don’t know what to think about it. Strange. See, I’m one of those that never believes anyone could possibly be interested in me, at least I know from the past no one I ever liked has been. I just don’t have much confidence when it comes to myself, my looks and or anything about “me”, so when I hear something like that I’m kind of stunned. No guy has ever given me reason to be confident (not that I should base it off that I know but lets be honest it does matter) Ive heard nice comments here and there but those are from guy friends who are like brothers so I take it as just loving comments from guys who are supposed to (lol as my friends) be nice. I don’t know. Its been weird. To hear that, then my friend was convinced this other dude was flirting with me. I’m like wow. LOL I chalk it to up desperation on their part or really bad vision. either or, take your pick.

I tried to sign up with pay per post but I’m still waiting on the approval. After some archive issues I haven’t got an answer. I was hoping Id hear from them soon but NOOOOOOOO. Oh well. Ill be patient. I’ll look at it as a humbling experience, in that I need to learn patience ha!

Im looking to create a new site. Ive always wanted to have a link directory but I’m not sure. Then Ive always wanted to have an E-Zine but somehow I can never figure out where to start with that. I just like to keep busy with different projects. Rather then doing something completely different I should focus on the ones I have but thats kinda of boring to me lol. I was once told I’m the sort of person who likes to be busy with 500 things but never finish any of them. I know now that is very true. I need variety cause Im easily bored. Yet I’m also easily entertained. I think its just that I haven’t found my niche yet, (when it comes to a website) I know when I do I’ll be set. Guess the quest shall continue..