SOLITUDE
Ooh, I’ve been such a mess lately. I have been in a funk like nobody’s business. I have basically cut off everyone I know, and have pretty much kept to myself. I have a lot going on personally and I’m pretty stressed, but for whatever reason it seems to be “showing” itself in me becoming very, very closed off. I don’t know that it’s rational, but I seem content with it, almost at peace with it. The pleas of others to call them and or to text them and or to just talk to them have no effect or bearing on me. It’s actually a little unnerving. I almost feel I’ve turned completely cold. I don’t know. Part of me really believes this is something I’ve needed. The peacefulness I feel and the utter contentment I’m experiencing leads me to believe that, but, it also could be me fooling myself. I know I need to get back to my “way of life” and I think eventually I will, but right now I just so crave being where I am at. I’m not ready to go back. I’m making a lot of changes in my life, a lot of decisions are taking place, and I know I need support and “guidance” as I go through these changes but I want nothing more then to just remain in my little room (or bubble) and be left to my own. I can breathe when I am. I feel freer when I am. I just need and want the space I’m having as I work through everything. I know some wont be happy with it, I’m sure when I look back I wont be to thrilled, but I do know that in this moment the solitude is exactly what I need.
oHh darling, I understand 100% of what you are going through.. and you’re right. Sometimes you just need to have time for yourself and noone else.. and nothing is wrong with that. In fact, if I could I would probably be that way all the time. I rather enjoy it to be honest. I just hope that in whatever you do and whatever decisions you make, you are happy. YOU come first. I also want to really thank you for the comment you left me. I highly appreciate it.. you don’t even know. It brought some..relief to my stress. *big big hug* hang in there and if you ever need to vent to someone, you can come to me
*hugs* I somewhat know how you feel. I sort of went through something like that last year, and it was VERY hard for me to adjust, but I’ve made it my goal to adjust to it this year, and I am feeling GREAT! *hugs* Just take your time and hang in there, you’ll make it through sooner or later…
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