I don’t know what it is that as soon as I get home, I just want to hit the pillow. This overwhelming sensation of needed sleep comes over me and I just cant take stay awake, then I fall asleep only to wake up at like 11pm and not be able to get back to sleep till 5am or so. I hate when I get into routines like that. It’s killing me.

On a good note, I got my first submission to the Awards site. Thanks Kristi, Ill be adding you soon. I need more submissions so please stop by and take a look OK? thanks much!!

Anyway, I was talking to my mom today about my blog and in doing so I was thinking about the whole blog world and what it has become. I’m not sure how long most of you have been around or have taken part in the blogging aspect of the internet but in seeing all the new sites and how blogging has taken off, it’s almost got me longing for the days of what I remember a blog to truly be. Which was an online “diary” so to speak. Now, we have blogs for companies, or blogs for celebrities, but what are they using these blogs for? I don’t know, maybe a means of growth, or maybe it’s just where the world of blogging truly needs to be, yet somehow I still feel like something isn’t right? Maybe it’s just me and maybe I have too much time on my hands for even considering this topic important, who knows? What do you think? How long have you been blogging? how long have you been “connected” to the internet? do you feel it’s changing? if so, is it good changes or bad? how do you feel about it all? Oh, well that a perfect example of how I think of random things when I’m sleepy ignore me and my babbling lol.

Hey those of you in Florida, specifically St. Augustine, have some awesome to look foreword to. I wish we had something similar to that here, our town is not as “artsy” though, which is sad. I pretty much have to make my way to San Francisco to get any REAL arts culture lol! Anyway, Its almost time for the First Friday Weekend Art Walk it begins on December 7 & 8 and happens ever first weekend of the month after that. It looks really awesome, to be able to view all the artist galleries. Some of the featured artist are Sydney McKenna, Peter O’Neill and Beau Redmond. Peter O’Neill’s painting of the fireman during a “moment of silence” for sept 11th is so emotional and very touching. It conveys the pain and sadness so many people had to endure at that time and even today. It’s amazing. Sydney McKenna has this beautiful oil painting called “Turbulence” which reminds me of a photo I took. It’s awesome to see live imagery on canvas. I wish I had that kind of talent. I suck lol. Anyway, that should be really cool to see. Also, along with that there will be exhibits, music, entertainment and refreshments all for you to enjoy at 20 different gallery locations. There will also be tours and complimentary rides on the sightseeing trains and “old town trolleys” All-in-all it seems like a lot of fun with a little bit of everything to please, whether its art, music or food. It’s all there at the St. Augustine Artwalk.

“Gold Digger” - Kayne West Ft. Jamie Foxx

[EDIT] I got my Portfolio up and running. It’s simple, nothing special. I need to add more but what’s there is what I could find. sorry for the fuglyness of the work, I guess design really isn’t my best quality ha.[/EDIT]

Now I ain’t sayin’ she a gold digger
But she ain’t messin’ wit no broke.. broke.. broke..
Now I ain’t sayin’ she a gold digger
But she aint messin wit no broke.. broke.. broke..
Get down girl go head get down
Get down girl go head get down
Get down girl go head get down
Get down girl go head

Man I just L-O-V-E this song. LOL! It’s one of those few “rap” songs that totally gets me jammin’ my little Irish guy agrees, look at him go! he’s groovin baby. Go little man, go! BWAHAH I was looking through all my graphics and junk and I found him. I don’t quite remember where I got him but nonetheless I love him lol I got my skillz from the little man, you know how he does it! ha. OMG too funny.

So today, Im on a bit of a natural high. For once in a very long time I’m not sad or down. I feel “content” It’s good thing. I don’t feel so doom and gloom. I’m happy, it’s a GREAT thing. I think it comes down to the fact that I had not been around my friends and I had not been able to build my faith by going to my “church” in a while. Now that I did. I feel better. Not 100% but definitely better. Hopefully, this continues.

So I started working on my portfolio as I had mentioned in a blog before, I had found a job listing which was asking for a graphic designer, I didn’t submit because I didn’t feel I was good enough nor did I have a portfolio. So, thanks to the encouragement of those of you that commented on that post I decided to go ahead and make one. At the least I will have one made and even though I’m totally embarrassed to reveal some of the stuff I’ve made over the years, at least I’ll be able to see how I’ve progressed. Though it hasn’t been by much LOL.

In doing that, I’ve realized how much work online I need to do. I still need to make some more codes for the Awards site. I also need to check up on my fanlistings, get them updated. I re-did a website for a friend, I told him I’d get some other stuff for it done, so I need to do that as well. I need to go through all my joined FL’s and see if they still exist. I also want to start to try and make my very first wordpress layout. Im procrastinating because last time I tried it was a HUGE mess and I’m not really feeling the idea of sitting here for 10 hours trying to fix it all. I still have to throw ideas around about what I’d like it to be/look like, who I’d want to feature. I don’t know, I just know I want to try, so hopefully soon you’ll see something self-created lol.

Man, my playlist is rocking today. It just finished playing “Right Here, Right Now” by Fatboy Slim, “White Lies” by Paul Van Dyk and Rapture by IIO Now it’s playing “She’s Back” by Westlife Woo Hoo. I have my own personal club in my earphones. Me and little Irish dude are rockin’, literally!

Bonjour mes amis. Comment êtes-vous? Je suis très très fatigué. Aujourd’hui a un lent et ennuyeux jour, mais encore je suis encore fatigué…

that’s about as in depth of French it’s going to get. LOL It’s funny how I seem to understand more and more though, it’s kinda crazy to think if I just try hard enough, I might actually be able to learn another language. It blows my mind. It’s actually pretty cool, to be able to communicate with anyone is a good thing, but to be able to communicate with them in their own language - that is amazing. If only I could actually start to use it and formulate sentences I’d be happy.

Im sooooooo tired. I feel like Im about to pass out here on the comp. Today wasn’t as bad as I thought it would be, with all the crowds and people out shopping I thought it would be crazy, but it wasn’t, in fact it was very sllllow, totally boring. Especially when your the only one working there who speaks English, I had no one to talk to lol. Boo.

Speaking of crowds, were you one of those millions around the nation standing in line at 4am? I passed a best buy this morning around 3:45am and there was already a line down the side of the building lol. So answer me this, anyone who actually made it out there, did you get what you wanted? was waiting in line worth it? did you freeze to death like I did here IN MY HOUSE? I can only imagine the temp outside. BRRRR. I often wondered what’s the draw of waiting outline at such ungodly hour of the morning, yeah Ive heard it over and over that you get better deals, but Ive also heard over and over that’s really not that great of a deal when you start to think about it. I’m still waiting for a logical answer.. Maybe I’ll get one.. any takers?

So unlike most of my fellow humans in the United States, I don’t celebrate holidays so today is just like any other for me. Except. I can’t go anywhere as nothing is open lol. Oh well you learn to live with it after a while. Which is why I decided to spend time here ont he site, blogging about many things but also dong some much needed ops that I got. Sorry for that but you know, your girl needs cash and that’s the way for me to do it, when I’m not at work, like today. Boo lol! Actually, I’m still not feeling well so I’m pretty tired. I had French Class today, it was nice, but I still don’t get anything. I just wish there was a way for me to understand it all. I guess maybe I need to focus more on it and study harder. They said just using it an hour each day will make it more useful, so hopefully I can start to do that.

I was looking on a job listing yesterday, and I found one for a freelance graphic designer. My heart stopped because it’s the perfect opportunity, one I’ve been looking for. Yet, I don’t want to submit a portfolio because for one, I don’t have one lol and two I don’t think I’m that good. I hate that I limit myself in so many ways, I mean what’s the worse thing they could say? Im not what they are looking for? You know, It sucks. I want to try but I don’t know. I should at the least make a portfolio that way, if something like this comes up again, then Ill at least have one made and I can’t second guess myself, just send the link and leave the rest up to them.

Alright I must go now I have to head off to my meeting!

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OK, the other topic I was going to talk about was Dancing With The Stars. How many of you watch that? See, I always held a firm stance against watching that show. I thought it was stupid and lame. As always, foot must exit mouth lol. I now love it. I think it’s great, to see how far the celebrities have come in their dancing skills is amazing. Somehow I always desire to want to ballroom dance every time I watch lol! Deep in my heart, dancing always seemed like it would be loads of fun to do and learn. I envy those like Wade Robinson or Chris Brown even MJ who have skills like nobody’s business. Anyway, so if you’ve watched this time around what do you think of the final 3? I love me some Helio (I believe that is how you spell it.) He has this amazing way about him. That cheesy smile of his, helps. I also like Mel. I think she’s amazing. Im hoping one of those two win. Now, I know everyone’s mom love them some Marie and she has done an awesome job, I was really surprised, she deserves her due, but I think it’s really a battle between Helio and Mel. I guess we’ll have to wait and see who wins. I can’t wait for next week. Who do you want to win?

So with our car being broken it’s time to start looking into ways to get it fixed. The problem is that, the thing that is wrong with it, isn’t the only work it needs. There are some usual maintenance issues that it has and that need to be looked at. My wallet hurts, trust me. I’m doing my best not to chuck it all out the window, but as with anything in life, you gotta take it in stride. I’ve been looking at AAMCO for some deals. Right now they have a 25$ off any service coupon, I saw that they also have a $29.95 Transmission Fluid Change or they will even look at the “Check Engine Light” for free. I’m really thinking about the Transmission Fluid change. I just got it an oil change, which is needed and since its an older car, I believe it’s going to need another change very soon. I took our other car in for an oil change as well. That one had not had one in a VERY long time and it needed it badly. It also needs a tune-up and brake check. I think some tires as well. The older car, needs a tune-up badly. It has over 60,000 miles and it didn’t get one by the previous owner at that mileage so I need to do that. Which is going to cost mucho denero but I’m willing to cut corners and take any kind of coupon or specials I can find, and it seems like these might be some pretty good ones from AAMCO. Since they do Brakes, Transmission, and Tune-Ups, I know there has go to be help for me and my pennies.

So I said I would blog about the AMA’s what did you all think? How did you feel about Daughtry and Carrie Underwood being the big winners? I was pretty cool with the overall show. I think it was rather boring though, to be honest. I think I much more prefer the Grammys there more of an “edge” so to speak with them then the AMA’s. I loved Alicia Keys’ performance, it was AMAZING. I hope to see her live one day. I also enjoyed Rascal Flatts. I think my favourite performance was Chris Brown though, that was one awesome set! The dancing upside down, was too cool lol I’m like can I try that? Another cool moment was Beyonce doing her song with the country flavour, that was different, but fresh. I like the ability of artists to interchange styles and make it work, as Tim Gunn would say lol! (reference to my love for Project Runway). Nonetheless, it was a decent show. Nothing to scream over, but all in all a good watch. What did you think?

I am indebted to one of my uncles, forever. As a younger person, I, as I might have mentioned, didn’t have a dad. Sadly, before I could ever enjoy the usual father daughter things, he died. As time passed I always wished I could of had some of those “special moments” with him. Whether it was watching him fix a car or mow the lawn, eat my burned cookies or read me a bedtime story, watch TV together or go to a ballgame. I guess I just wanted to have something like that to remember. But you know even though I didn’t have him, I got something else which wasn’t bad at all, my uncle. I got to spend time with him and do things with him, I learned much from him and even though he wasn’t my dad it helped having him around. One of best times I remember with him was when he took me to my very first baseball game, it was around my birthday and I was excited as could be I grew up being a sports fan and he is as well, so it made it all the more fun. I remember walking into the stadium and seeing the grass and how green it was. The smell of the hot dogs and beer lol. I will always, ALWAYS remember that day. I hope that one day I can do the same. When I went to NY I wanted to badly to go to a Yankees game, it would be unbelievable. They weren’t in town at that point, so sadly, I couldn’t go, but I’ve been thinking you know what would be the ULTIMATE gift for my uncle? I was looking for/at the Yankees Spring Training Schedule! How cool would that be? Taking him to see the ULTIMATE in MLB teams? I can imagine how excited he’d be. What makes it more awesome is his son, my cousin, is a baseball player (not pro lol) so he could go as well. I think that would be an amazing way to say just a little thanks for not only being there for me but for giving me one of the most awesome memories I will ever have. What would make it better is it would be in the way it all started, so to speak. How fun!